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I have felt some uncomfortable emotions the last day. I had some feelings come up from my past that reminded me of some pain that I experienced a long time ago.

It was a painful time for me. Something that took me a long time to clear my mind and heart of. I could feel the weight of it bearing me down.

I was up most of the night last night trying to not allow the feelings to come up. Yet, I was up most of the night trying to observe the thoughts but also resisting them. 

Around 3 a.m I sat up in my bed and I knew it was time for me to say a prayer. I prayed with all my heart with what I could give at that time of the night. 

It turned out to be the best thing ever.

I don’t know why I waited so long to pray but I felt immediate peace. I don’t always receive comfort or answers so quickly but I knew that Heavenly Father heard my prayer.

I knew that He didn’t want me to feel that discomfort. I could feel the spirit impress upon me that Jesus Christ can lift this pain from me.

I laid back down just feeling so loved and grateful for Their love for me.

At times at night when it’s time to get ready for bed, my anxiety has come back up about experiencing another night where I will feel some more pain. 

Do you also experience the fearful thoughts that come at night? I do.

The emotion was building up inside of me while I was getting my kids ready for bed this evening.

I was walking into their rooms trying to prepare our nightly ritual and I looked at the picture of Jesus in my son’s room.

This picture is very comforting to me. I look at it every night before saying goodnight to my kids and I know that Jesus Christ is aware of me and my children. 

While looking at this picture, I burst into tears because I didn’t want to have another night where I was in pain or fear. 

I just felt love by looking at the picture and was reminded of the wonderful grace of my Heavenly Father. He answered my prayer last night. He could do it again. 

I want my faith to be in Him. I want to let go of my pain and share it with my Heavenly Father to allow that peace and comfort I want to receive.

It takes faith. Believing they have the power to guide me, give peace, and comfort.

I also know that He wants to help us at all times. He wants to comfort us when we are sad, mad, afraid, and anything in between. 

It’s a miracle how much He blesses me. The answer to my prayer at 3 in the morning was a miracle. 

I’m grateful for prayer and how it invites comfort and peace. 

Alma 34:17

17. Therefore may God grant unto you, my brethren, that ye may begin to exercise your faith unto repentance, that ye begin to call upon his holy name, that he would have mercy upon you;

About Author

My name is Brianna Marshall. I was born in Dayton, Ohio into a Air Force family. We moved to Colorado Springs, CO when I was 5 years old and lived there till I moved off to College to Orem, Utah in 2007. I was raised into The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I'm still actively practicing the same faith today. I graduated from Utah Valley University with a Bachelors in Communications. I was married to my husband Dom in 2010 in the San Diego Temple. Dom and I have two children, one a boy, named Ronen, and a girl, named Ryen. I have been in and out of teaching physical fitness for over 10 years. I love to run and weight lift most days of the week. I also love to do yoga at night to calm me down before bed. I have always had a love for baked goods. My mom made a great dessert every Sunday and made them upon request growing up. I have always been really well at expressing my thoughts and feelings. I love to express a lot of my spiritual feelings with friends and family. As a young girl, I worked really hard to have a great relationship with my Father in Heaven. I have felt His presence from the time I was 8 and currently still feel his love and desire for me to become closer to Him. I desire to be a missionary as well as help others understand His love for all of His children. I find that being friendly, understanding and being compassionate to everyone is the best example of His son, Jesus Christ. I strive to follow His teachings. I also stumble with all of it. I'm so grateful for the atonement and repentance when I'm in need of change of heart and a compassionate spirit. I find life to be so beautiful and I'm grateful everyday for the experiences I have. I am a wife, mother, daughter of God, writer, runner, baker, and an imperfect being striving to be the best me.

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