I have felt some uncomfortable emotions the last day. I had some feelings come up from my past that reminded me of some pain that I experienced a long time ago.
It was a painful time for me. Something that took me a long time to clear my mind and heart of. I could feel the weight of it bearing me down.
I was up most of the night last night trying to not allow the feelings to come up. Yet, I was up most of the night trying to observe the thoughts but also resisting them.
Around 3 a.m I sat up in my bed and I knew it was time for me to say a prayer. I prayed with all my heart with what I could give at that time of the night.
It turned out to be the best thing ever.
I don’t know why I waited so long to pray but I felt immediate peace. I don’t always receive comfort or answers so quickly but I knew that Heavenly Father heard my prayer.
I knew that He didn’t want me to feel that discomfort. I could feel the spirit impress upon me that Jesus Christ can lift this pain from me.
I laid back down just feeling so loved and grateful for Their love for me.
At times at night when it’s time to get ready for bed, my anxiety has come back up about experiencing another night where I will feel some more pain.
Do you also experience the fearful thoughts that come at night? I do.
The emotion was building up inside of me while I was getting my kids ready for bed this evening.
I was walking into their rooms trying to prepare our nightly ritual and I looked at the picture of Jesus in my son’s room.
This picture is very comforting to me. I look at it every night before saying goodnight to my kids and I know that Jesus Christ is aware of me and my children.
While looking at this picture, I burst into tears because I didn’t want to have another night where I was in pain or fear.
I just felt love by looking at the picture and was reminded of the wonderful grace of my Heavenly Father. He answered my prayer last night. He could do it again.
I want my faith to be in Him. I want to let go of my pain and share it with my Heavenly Father to allow that peace and comfort I want to receive.
It takes faith. Believing they have the power to guide me, give peace, and comfort.
I also know that He wants to help us at all times. He wants to comfort us when we are sad, mad, afraid, and anything in between.
It’s a miracle how much He blesses me. The answer to my prayer at 3 in the morning was a miracle.
I’m grateful for prayer and how it invites comfort and peace.
17. Therefore may God grant unto you, my brethren, that ye may begin to exercise your faith unto repentance, that ye begin to call upon his holy name, that he would have mercy upon you;