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One of the most beautiful parts of my life is knowing Jesus Christ is real and is there for me. 

Knowing He is there for me is joy and music to my soul. 

My six year old tonight, “Mom, can we stop playing so much church talks and church music? It’s making me cry.” 

I laughed and asked him why and he said, “I see how much you are touched by the spirit and cry when you listen to them. They also make me feel good that I want to cry.” 

Haha he is so cute. I loved that he said that.

Yet, he was somewhat right. 

What Speaks to My Soul

I was listening to some powerful music that moved my heart and spirit. I was also listening to church talks that were humbling my thoughts to the point I was in tears. 

What can I say? When I feel the spirit the tears start flowing. It’s beautiful.

What I think he was saying is that he sees me cry at least once a day from being touched by the spirit through reading my scriptures, listening to a talk, or listening to music. 

He has asked me before, “Mom, if those make you so happy why are you crying?”

That was my immediate thought when he wanted me to turn off the music. Why am I crying when I am happy? 

For me, when words or impressions touch my soul, it flows through my whole body. 

Sometimes I shout in rejoicing and sometimes I cry in somber. 

I grew up singing. I love singing. If I could do something in my spare time I would sing in a gospel choir. I love it. 

For the past month I started to listen to gospel choirs again. They spark a light in my soul. 

Purpose and Direction

I started listening and singing to express some pain I have been feeling. I think that is why I have been crying over the music more than usual. The words are touching a little stronger. 

I have been feeling a little lost with my purpose and direction. 

It’s funny because I know my purpose and my direction! I’m guided by the spirit and my Father in Heaven daily with it. I’m just doubting myself! (Come on, Bri, you know!) 😉

I KNOW I am meant to be a wife, mother, and a woman that expresses my love, sorrow, joy, and journey connecting with the spirit. They are personally impressed upon my mind daily. It’s such a wonderful gift to receive these answers. They are enough TO ME at this particular time in my life. 

I know the Lord is working with me daily on progressing and becoming better. 

You Are Enough

I would say that I have been fearing my future, the unknown, and how I will connect with others through the Holy Ghost. 

This sounds so easy to express to you but in my thoughts they have been heavy. 

I feel the advisory and my negative thoughts engulf me because I feel I am not enough. I am not meant to share this wonderful gospel of Jesus Christ. 

But, I TOTALLY AM! I feel with every fiber in me that I am meant to share that Jesus Christ is real!

Jesus Christ is aware of you and I. He loves us. He is on your side, my side. He is here. 

My day was so powerful when my son talked with me about what I was listening to.

Do you want to know the thought that came to my mind while listening to this music? While giving all I could to believe that I am enough, that I am loved?

I felt the sweet whisper of the Holy Ghost, saying, “I am here.”

Hearing that was so comforting. It was so comforting to feel that extra nudge during times of uncertainty and doubt. 

I want you to know that Jesus Christ is Here. He is there for you through the pain and the joy. 

With me knowing He is there for me, I have more courage, more of a smile on my face, more a purpose to share my love for Him.

Take time to listen to His voice. Take time to pray for comfort and guidance. He is listening and He wants you to listen to Him, because I guarantee He is saying to you, “I am here.”

Listen To Your Sweet Spirit

As I was putting my son to bed tonight, he so sweetly asked for me to sing that song I was listening to today to him. 

He said, “I know that when you cry over feeling the spirit, it’s because you are happy. Please sing the song that makes you happy.”

I hope you find as much love and peace from this song as I did. 

About Author

My name is Brianna Marshall. I was born in Dayton, Ohio into a Air Force family. We moved to Colorado Springs, CO when I was 5 years old and lived there till I moved off to College to Orem, Utah in 2007. I was raised into The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I'm still actively practicing the same faith today. I graduated from Utah Valley University with a Bachelors in Communications. I was married to my husband Dom in 2010 in the San Diego Temple. Dom and I have two children, one a boy, named Ronen, and a girl, named Ryen. I have been in and out of teaching physical fitness for over 10 years. I love to run and weight lift most days of the week. I also love to do yoga at night to calm me down before bed. I have always had a love for baked goods. My mom made a great dessert every Sunday and made them upon request growing up. I have always been really well at expressing my thoughts and feelings. I love to express a lot of my spiritual feelings with friends and family. As a young girl, I worked really hard to have a great relationship with my Father in Heaven. I have felt His presence from the time I was 8 and currently still feel his love and desire for me to become closer to Him. I desire to be a missionary as well as help others understand His love for all of His children. I find that being friendly, understanding and being compassionate to everyone is the best example of His son, Jesus Christ. I strive to follow His teachings. I also stumble with all of it. I'm so grateful for the atonement and repentance when I'm in need of change of heart and a compassionate spirit. I find life to be so beautiful and I'm grateful everyday for the experiences I have. I am a wife, mother, daughter of God, writer, runner, baker, and an imperfect being striving to be the best me.

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