I remember in High School I wanted to be an actress or work for the news of some kind. When I was starting college I thought a degree in Communications would help me pursue that. In the last semester of college, I wasn’t sure what I wanted to do anymore or how to get there. I thought to myself that if I continue to work for many different jobs I will come across what I wanted to do. Then I realized that wasn’t the plan that Heavenly Father had for me. I was three year into my marriage with Dom at that point and we soon became pregnant with Ronen and I immediately knew that my main focus should be towards my family. After having Ronen I felt so strongly that I needed to be with him as he grew up, through it all and also the other children we planned on having.
As I have been home with them I have wanted to keep up with hobbies or cultivate the talents I do. I taught yoga when we lived in Arizona. I started photography when we moved back to Utah. I have always loved doing things hands on and being my own boss. I also love connecting with people on a more personal matter and I was able to do that with the hobbies I had. I have had a huge hobby of baking since having Ronen. I guess you could say it was a “filler” for me when the day was difficult, I would bake some cookies or banana bread and then I felt some relief of stress. Each hobby I had was satisfying in itself because I was still doing something for me while I was staying at home with my children.
January, of this year on my mom’s birthday we took her out to eat and were planning on going to do an activity after dinner. Ryen, just turned one at the time and still loved to nurse, (she still does, haha) and I nursed her in the car before we left for the activity. Ronen and my parents were playing in their car and Dom, Ryen, and I in our car. I asked Dom to give me some advice on my “purpose.” I was praying about it for weeks at that point and wanted to know how to be the best mom I could and serve Heavenly Father the way I am meant to. I believe we each all have talents that could be best used to serve with purpose. Some, are doctors, pilots, military, photography, etc. I have been able to express myself easily throughout my life and wanted to use that talent for a positive influence. I was pondering on this one talent and how I could express my feelings in writing to those wanting to strengthen their spirit, gain a testimony of Jesus Christ, and could relate with me as a women or mother. I never thought I could have a talent in writing, but I have known I wanted to express what I believed to be true in writing to my neighbor next door or across the world.
All of these thoughts are being expressed to Dom in the car while I’m feeding Ryen and he told me something so simple. He said, “Babe, their is no need to make this so complicated. How about you start writing down your thoughts everyday? Keep a journal of all things spiritual. As you start writing more and more it will become a part of you and that’s when your talents can expand to a blog, articles, books, or podcasts.” His answer was soooo simple and I was so worried about creating a masterpiece through my writing that I didn’t think to start small and work my way up. I was thinking of my end goal. I thanked him for such a great conversation in the car on my mom’s birthday.
Since January 19th, I have wrote everyday the spiritual experiences I have had with my husband, kids, friends, callings at church, individual promptings, and many others. I write each night after I put my kids to bed. It has been such a growing and enlightening experience for me. I have been studying the scriptures more. I listen to more church talks and self help podcasts. All of these sources I am using to gain for spirituality and to be a better me.
I believe a better me has come through loving my savior, Jesus Christ and having gratitude in my heart for the blessings and grace Heavenly Father gives me, daily. 2 Nephi 9: 52 “Behold, my beloved bretheren, remember the words of your God; pray unto him continually by day, and give thanks unto his holy name by night. Let your hearts rejoice.” I love that!
Fast forward to where I am now, I prayed about the next steps I should be taking with my thoughts and feelings through writing. I received the prompting that I needed to start my blog a month ago. I ignored that prompting two times until I came to my confidant, Dom, and told him that I keep having the feeling I need to start a blog, now is the time. He was of course, supportive and has helped me create my site and will continue to help me with navigating and such, because he is awesome!
I have been feeling nervous with this new “purpose” because I’m wanting to set goals for the way I impact my readers. I want to relate with them. I want to be vulnerable. I want to have them somehow feel the light of Christ in them through each post. Yet, I have come to know that how they feel is completely up to them and I’m happy to share my thoughts and experiences because of how it makes me feel sharing it.
I believe my purpose is to; one, be my best self, two, love and rear my children in righteousness, three, share my love for the Lord, and also to love the spiritual experiences I am receiving and gaining from having them. My whole purpose is to live closer and closer to Him. I feel happier and I strive to be better. 2 Nephi 9:39 “Remember, to be carnally minded is death, and to be spiritually-minded is life eternal.”
I know that as I live to share my spiritual experiences through writing or face-to-face I am benefiting me and those I come in contact with. I’m so excited to be here and to share my many stories with you. Can this relate to you? I want to connect with you!