I love what I heard a while back from Jody Moore when she said, “before you end something or change something, love it before you leave it or find the joy that comes from it.”
I have been working to find joy and love in my new area of living. I have been finding new things each day to find what I enjoy being in my community.
Before we moved to Texas from Utah it wasn’t easy. We loved the state of Utah. We were excited to start a new adventure, but at the same time knew we would be leaving behind some pretty amazing things.
We loved almost everything about living there.
I loved who I was becoming while living there.
I was so happy to be a stay at home mom while progressing into my blogging and podcast. I felt very fulfilled and was excited for what I was creating.
After moving to Texas, I allowed so many outside sources to influence my thinking. I didn’t find joy in being at home or creating my content as much. I have felt that being at home is a negative thing from what I have witnessed in us living here.
Yes, I am blaming which wasn’t ok, but I am finally aware of it.
I want to be at home and I want to work on creating more content for my blog. I feel very fulfilled with those two areas of my life. Yet, I was listening and observing other lifestyles thinking they were somehow better than mine.
My sister sent me a great article from the church from gospel living, it says,
“Sleep, school, chores, activities … life gets busy quick! The world tells us that busier equals happier. But that’s not always true.
“I have tried to imagine [Jesus Christ] bustling between meetings or multitasking to get a list of urgent things accomplished,” President Dieter F. Uchtdorf said. “I can’t see it. Instead I see the compassionate and caring Son of God purposefully living each day.”1
Maybe now is a good time to rethink your schedule. Are you giving time back to God and those around you? Some of the most important parts of each day are when we:
- Pray and ponder.
- Spend time with family.
- Study scriptures.
- Help those in need.
And here’s a secret: doing these things actually helps us accomplish all the other items on our to-do list. We promise!”
For a little while I have been praying about my “purpose” and why I feel like I am not doing enough. I was weighing myself down.
I wasn’t finding joy because I was so paralyzed about what I “should” be doing instead of what I want to be doing.
I was/is already doing what I want to be doing.
After reading this article I received an answer.
I felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders.
I was sharing with my husband this same thinking I have been having and he gave me a blessing.
I felt the prompting to just listen to what he had to say rather than feel the pressure of what he was saying.
I felt reassured that I was doing what I wanted to be doing.
It came more to light when I was doing an interview for my podcast and what was shared was like a huge answer to my prayer.
The interviewee said that she wasn’t finding joy in her life even as a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints all her life until she was later in age. She had all the temporal things she could have wanted but she wasn’t happy internally.
She said she didn’t invite joy. She would fight it.
Now that she is finding the joy and allowing it to fill her heart she has a stronger connection with her Father in Heaven.
When she said that, I felt like she was answering my prayer and finding joy in my journey.
Instead of being crippled by fear of not knowing if I am doing what I am “supposed” to be doing, I can find joy in what I am doing right now. I am being a mom, which is what I chose and WANT to do. I am creating content to share the gospel of Jesus Christ, which I also chose and WANT to do. If I can find joy in them now, I will come to know and bring further light into other passions I want to do and create.
I don’t want to wait until I am further down in life to find joy in what I am doing.
I want to start now. I want to find joy in what I am doing now and expand further.
I would rather love what I am creating and working towards now than be frustrated and feel defeated about what I am NOT doing. That won’t create much… except unhappy memories.
This experience and thinking was an answer to my prayers and a joy that enlighted my heart.
Find joy in your journey now. It’s yours. It’s great to have good influencers but don’t let them decide your future. Do what’s best for you and enjoy it. Your life is right now. Create it how you want. 🙂
“Becoming a covenant woman in partnership with God is how great and good daughters of God have always mothered, led, and ministered, serving in whatever way and place He has prepared for them. I promise that you will find joy in your journey to your heavenly home as you return to Him as a covenant-keeping daughter of God.”