briannaraldridgeIt’s a real thing. It’s very real, the emotions that come out when I write down my thoughts and feelings.
This afternoon as I was writing my weekly email for my subscribers I felt the spirit touch me. I could also feel so many comforting emotions. I felt closer to my Savior as I was expressing vulnerable parts of me. The tough parts.
I also had no idea what I was going to be writing about in my email and I felt inspired to share how the Savior transforms you and I through difficult experiences. They also grow us spiritually.
Fearful Learning
As I look back at all the experiences I had that were very hard for me emotionally and spiritually they are the times that I have grown the most.
I remember some of them to be super scary and sad trials.
When Dom and I were first married I struggling watching anything that brought any negative emotion. For months I had a hard time sleeping because of what I watched and how I thought about it.
Currently, I am struggling with night time because Dom is working over nights again. Something I didn’t want to go back to after 4 years of him doing it.
Now that he is doing it again, I have fears of being alone and all the negative thoughts that come with night time. I’m not the only one, right? Haha
The thing about these experiences and trials are how my thoughts go wild. My thoughts go into the worst case scenario and bring me down to the pits.
That experience early on in our marriage and the experience now both feel the same. They both have me feeling doubts.
I know what I am lacking is allowing the spirit to comfort me, my thoughts to relax, and believe my Heavenly Father is aware of me and loves me.
When I am fully aware during the day about how much my Heavenly Father loves me, I have more grace for myself. I also feel more power in my thoughts.
Growing Spiritually
But I also know that these experiences are what grow me spiritually. They have me turning more and more to my Savior. They have me reaching and wanting guidance from my Father in Heaven.
As much as I don’t like having these thoughts and feelings, I am yearning to learn and grow from them.
I am wanting more understanding for my fears. I am wanting more openness on how to respond to my fears.
I am wanting to allow the spirit to comfort me and know that God is in charge. He will be my lifeline. God is always my way to peace and growth.
Trials Are Not Meant to Be Easy
In my email I was writing today I could feel the spirit impress upon me that during ALL of my difficult points and thoughts, I will always be comforted and loved by my Heavenly Father.
I will also have a full understanding from my Savior, Jesus Christ, because He has experienced all of my fears and uncomfortable thoughts.
With the knowledge of these things it brings more brightness of hope. I can see more of what is right. I can feel more of a stillness in my heart.
They are trials for a reason. They are not supposed to be easy. But, they are meant to shape us, build us, and grow us to become our best selves.
They are meant to grow us spiritually for a glory that is beautiful and completely worth it.
Be Patient With Myself, Heavenly Father Is…
With that, I want to be more patient with myself. Love myself more. Understand that nothing is wrong here. Of course, my brain wants to give me all the worry, pain, and fear.
I love the most that when I am starting to feel the pain or the worry I know where to turn. I know the light with which to follow. It’s the best light.
It’s the most comforting and loving feeling to know that Heavenly Father is constantly watching over me and ready and willing to embrace me.
