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I had a really good conversation with Dom, recently. We talked about wanting to remove ourselves from as many worldly distractions as possible. For Dom, he said he wanted to work on not watching as much sports. For me, I want to work on not allowing negative influences of the world to influence my thoughts. 

As I went to bed last night I repented for my day. At certain points of the day I didn’t allow the spirit to guide me or be present with me to help solve problems. I would like to share a very real prompting and impression that came from my prayer while repenting. I completely opened my heart and wanted the spirit to come in to allow Heavenly Father to communicate with me. I felt His closeness and words so clear. I felt His pure love and grace. I thought to myself how at times I can let earthly distractions invade my thoughts and it can prevent the spirit from speaking to me. I asked myself this question; we feel our bodies and promptings every so often, but do we try to feel the spirit in our whole body and mind to live with the guidance of the Lord?

I expressed this wonderful prayer and experience with Dom. I don’t want to just believe Heavenly Father is in Heaven watching over, which I do, but I want to feel His spirit in me. I want to experience His whole presence helping me with the way I act and think.

A great talk, by M.Russell Ballard called “Giving Our Spirits Control Over Our Bodies,” https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/general-conference/2019/10/53ballard?lang=eng was so touching to me. The talk had me think on how to have the Spirit of Christ more prominent within me. He said something that I love! “Every night as I review my day in prayer with my Father in Heaven, I ask to be forgiven if I did anything wrong and promise to try to be better tomorrow. I believe this regular daily repentance helps remind my body who is in charge of me.”

I thought of the similar prayer I had from this talk. But the most important part to me in the phrase was, “who is in charge of me?” My spirit is in charge of me.

My spirit can help me overcome the temptations I have. I want to be aware when I start to feel angry, pain, or hurt and what I can do before acting on it. I am in charge of how pain makes me feel and if it will become something more. Jody Moore talked on, “Your 2020 Focus” https://jodymoore.com/your-2020-focus/ to really focus on loving more of yourself to get your goals.

I love myself and my spirit enough to be aware of the pain but having the goal to not let it change my spirit. I don’t want to be upset or allow worldly temptations to change me. I want the Spirit of Christ within me and influencing me. 

My spirit is in charge. I want and welcome its presence. I want to go about each day a little better with a focus to love myself and the spirits of others. Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ want their whole presence in my life, not just certain areas to feel good! They want to be their through my pain, trials, and wins, and blessings.

I sincerely look forward to prayers where I feel the deep love Heavenly Father has for me. I’m working towards that closeness this year and years to come. The spirit is in charge of me and I genuinely feel amazing as I keep it close. Pray for that closeness and guidance. It will benefit you tremendously and spiritually bless you. 

“And yes, we did have to make life-changing decisions and choices in that premortal realm. Every person who has ever lived or ever will live on this planet made an essential decision to choose to accept Heavenly Father’s plan for our salvation. So we all came to earth with a proven track record of a successful spiritual nature and eternal destiny.” -M. Russell Ballard

I strive for that spiritual nature and eternal destiny. The spirit is apart of me and I can allow it to be in charge. Life is more wonderful when it is.

About Author

My name is Brianna Marshall. I was born in Dayton, Ohio into a Air Force family. We moved to Colorado Springs, CO when I was 5 years old and lived there till I moved off to College to Orem, Utah in 2007. I was raised into The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I'm still actively practicing the same faith today. I graduated from Utah Valley University with a Bachelors in Communications. I was married to my husband Dom in 2010 in the San Diego Temple. Dom and I have two children, one a boy, named Ronen, and a girl, named Ryen. I have been in and out of teaching physical fitness for over 10 years. I love to run and weight lift most days of the week. I also love to do yoga at night to calm me down before bed. I have always had a love for baked goods. My mom made a great dessert every Sunday and made them upon request growing up. I have always been really well at expressing my thoughts and feelings. I love to express a lot of my spiritual feelings with friends and family. As a young girl, I worked really hard to have a great relationship with my Father in Heaven. I have felt His presence from the time I was 8 and currently still feel his love and desire for me to become closer to Him. I desire to be a missionary as well as help others understand His love for all of His children. I find that being friendly, understanding and being compassionate to everyone is the best example of His son, Jesus Christ. I strive to follow His teachings. I also stumble with all of it. I'm so grateful for the atonement and repentance when I'm in need of change of heart and a compassionate spirit. I find life to be so beautiful and I'm grateful everyday for the experiences I have. I am a wife, mother, daughter of God, writer, runner, baker, and an imperfect being striving to be the best me.

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